Saturday, August 23, 2008

Your invited to my pity party...

So some of my friends know that I have been trying to get pregnant for over 2 years. Well I went and had my hormones checked and they are actually way out of sorts, so I have been put on some vitamins to help to regulate them. Well my "friend" came to town (boo hoo, not pregnant this month...again) and WOW I am an emotional disaster, I am so melancholy and could cry watching a bug get smooshed. Tears welling up just thinking of that poor bug. And one of my best friend just found out that she is pregnant, I am so so so excited for her, but this weekend is hard. And there are these two beautifully pregnant ladies in my church, and just seeing their beautiful bellies, makes me ache. It also doesn't help that there are tons of families with kids at church and when the cutie little girls run up to their mommies...ache again. I know that it is true, but when your friends tell you "Your time will come, be patient" or "When you stop thinking about it, thats when it will happen." or "Maybe if you gained some weight..." Any ways I think that my pity party has gone on long enough. I need to pull my act together and finish reading a chapter in my psychology class so I can write a 3 page paper and then take a quiz tomorrow, and then make some lesson plans for school... It is only the first week :C

6 comments:

Michele said...

Jen...I love you. I am sorry your heart is aching so badly. I will keep you in my prayers.

The Herrenbrucks said...

You are totally in my prayers :) And I don't think all the "encouragement" in the world can heal your hurting heart...but YOU KNOW who can!

Brian and Cherie Landowski said...

I totally understand! I have only been struggling with this for a year, but my heart so longs to have a baby that it hurts just like you. You are not alone! Maybe I should see a doctor to figure out my problem...any suggestions??

Cathee Conner said...

I am so sorry. My best friend is going through this right now and its terribly difficult and emtional for her as well.

Renee said...

"Lead me by your truth and teach me, for you are the God who saves me. All day long I put my hope (I wait) in you." Psalm 25:5

I love you Jenn....

Art Teacher said...

Jenn, I wanna leave you a super long comment, but I think it would be too much on here. Check on your face facebook!