Monday, June 23, 2008

Am I not meant to be a mommy....

Something that many of you know that has been on my heart for the last 2 years is that Erick and I would have a baby...well it still hasn't happened. And Erick and I believe that for the last 2 years that the Lord has been using this to bring us closer to Him and to increase our faith. I believe that it has, I remember days (especially) holidays that I would be calling out to God "Please, please, let this be the month" And then when the period comes, knowing that God is still good, and the time just isn't right. We had also felt that we shouldn't go to the doctor to see what was wrong with us, because it would be as if we were trying to manipulate the situation if we found out something.
The hardest thing about this is many many of friends and family around me are pregnant and I get to watch them in this beautiful time in their lives and the ache inside never fades. Don't get me wrong I am so happy for them, and love to be involved a tiny bit.

The reason I shared this with you all is that I would appreciate your prayers, for my heart, I go through times when I lose hope and want to just go to the doctors and tell them to make me pregnant.

(I've been feeling that going towards a natural approach with vitamins or creams could work. Teri? Carly? I should just go to Trudy huh?)

7 comments:

The Herrenbrucks said...

I would absolutely go to Trudy. I also HIGHLY recommend the book Taking Charge of Your Fertility - not a Christian book - but very very insightful - you will not read all chapters -but I could walk you through what I read and found really helpful. So glad you are allowing this to be in God's hands. Trudy was a big help! Praying for you...

Michele said...

Jen...I was just talking to Jeremy about this last night...how much you have been on my heart lately in your yearning for a baby. I have never been in your situtation...but all I can offer is that God IS good...His timing IS perfect...and I promise He WILL take care of you guys (he has proven this to us time and again, and I know to you too). I think of Hannah in the Bible when I think of you. Keep crying out to Him as you also trust your family in His hands.

There is also some info in the book that helped me through childbirth. I'm going to try and get it back from someone who is borrowing (but not reading it) because there is some great info on fertility and how your body is affected by hormones, foods, stress, etc.

I hope we can hang out Thursday...I posted on your facebook page. Love ya!

Renee said...

Jen,
When Carly came tome and told me about her and Kevin trying, I had to her that I would would devote 30days in prayer for her. That was last September. Then in January, I was the last to know that she was pregnant.
Beginning July 1 trhough the end of the month, I will devote my prayer time for you. Blessing to you....

Michele said...

I don't know how else to reply to you except on this post...sorry it's off topic. Yes...your pool (is that ok? I think we talked about it before). If not, you can just come over here and Nicole can play in her little kiddie pool. Um...oh, I never programmed your new (well...not so new anymore) cell number. Will you call me?

Cherie <> said...

Jen,
I totally know what you're going through! My heart's greatest desire is to be a mommy and even though it's only been a year for Brian and I and we're not really "trying" persay, I secretly wish every month the same that I will get pregnant. The only difference is I haven't had my period in 5 months and all the pregnancy tests say I'm not pregnant...If you go to a doctor and get any tips you can share, I'd appreciate it!

Art Teacher said...

Erin's advice was really good, that book was very to the point and helped me understand the things that naturally occur in my body.
Trudy, was so great to talk to about it and helped me understand natural approaches to help my hormones become more balanced. Not to mention that after a stressful week at work an adjustment felt great!
Talking to a doctor about it is just talking, and sometimes it helps to here what they have to say. You don't have to do any of the treatments they suggest!
God's timing is perfect...when I look back on things I can see Him working out every little detail of our life...He's doing the same for you right now and already knows every detail of your children, you will know them too at just the right time! Love yA

Teri said...

Echo...Yes, yes, yes, yes, I would see Trudy. And read the book that Erin mentioned and read the book that Michele mentioned (I think I know the one she's talking about...she told me about it too.) And I have so much more I'd like to hear about from you regarding this and talk to you about that it's way too much to write. And I want to get together with you!!! What's your email? I am P - R - A - Y - I - N - G for you and can't help but feel that rejoicing with you for answered prayer will come! Email me: terigpence@yahoo.com