Something that many of you know that has been on my heart for the last 2 years is that Erick and I would have a baby...well it still hasn't happened. And Erick and I believe that for the last 2 years that the Lord has been using this to bring us closer to Him and to increase our faith. I believe that it has, I remember days (especially) holidays that I would be calling out to God "Please, please, let this be the month" And then when the period comes, knowing that God is still good, and the time just isn't right. We had also felt that we shouldn't go to the doctor to see what was wrong with us, because it would be as if we were trying to manipulate the situation if we found out something.
The hardest thing about this is many many of friends and family around me are pregnant and I get to watch them in this beautiful time in their lives and the ache inside never fades. Don't get me wrong I am so happy for them, and love to be involved a tiny bit.
The reason I shared this with you all is that I would appreciate your prayers, for my heart, I go through times when I lose hope and want to just go to the doctors and tell them to make me pregnant.
(I've been feeling that going towards a natural approach with vitamins or creams could work. Teri? Carly? I should just go to Trudy huh?)